In 2013, I finished grad school. I had been working nearly full time and also carrying a load of two classes per semester for the last three years, so the idea of moving on from that level of busy sounded very nice. Relaxing, even. Except. What happened after I graduated was not what any sane, level-headed person would do. Nope. Instead, I decided I would do ALL THE THINGS. And so I signed up to volunteer for this thing over here and those things over there. I signed up for small things and big things, and it’s the big things, especially, that got me. I found myself heading into 2014 with commitments that kept me up to my eyeballs in Busy.
Because I am a stubborn person, I kept my commitments. I’ll just make my plate bigger, so I can put more stuff on it, I thought. Except, it doesn’t quite work that way. Turns out that I have a very specific-sized plate that only fits a specific amount of stuff. And if I try to pile more on, well, I am the one who ends up in a pile… of exhaustion. It seems logical enough. But sometimes in practice it’s easy to get carried away.
So this year, I changed my mind about what level of busy I want to handle. I thought I wanted to handle All the Busy. I found out this year that I can handle a lot of it reasonably well, but able to handle and wanting to handle are two different things. Now my mind says, let’s see how much busy you can remove from your life and let’s just practice being for awhile. I think that’s a good plan.
This post is a part of Think Kit. Today’s prompt: “What did you change your mind about this year?”