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Four-legged LOLs

I feel very lucky in that there are many people and moments in my life that make me laugh. And not just giggles, but regular amounts of pure, fully-enjoying-this-moment laughter. One of my favorite funny moments has already been documented by a fellow Think Kitter (Sara), so instead of trying to retell that story, Imma tell you about smaller moments that made me laugh this year.

I am probably one of those people who talks about or takes pictures of or references their dog too much (if this puts you off, you should stop reading right now). But when I think about the moments that cause me to laugh, or experience pure delight, many of them are initiated by something Isabel the Dog does. If you added up all these little moments, it’d probably equal a big laugh. Let’s do the math.

First of all, Isabel likes to rest her head on head-level surfaces when she wants attention. I have never seen a dog do this until her. Sometimes, she finds really interesting places:

head-on-chair

In the summertime, whenever I come home from work and let her outside, the first thing she insists on doing is rubbing her back in the warm grass:

grass

And she manages (as many dogs do, I think) to find some funny ways to fall asleep. Here, with bone:

sleep-with-bone

And here, head on my lap, during Monday Night Football:

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On the flipside, her morning routine of trying to wake us up so that we can get to the morning walk are usually hilarious. Until the previous night’s bedtime reaches past midnight. Then it’s not at all funny. But she insists that the most effective dog alarm clock looks like this:

wake-up

Thus, my days are properly delightful, thanks in part to her.

This post is a part of Think Kit. Today’s prompt: What made you laugh out loud?

 

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Levels of Busy

In 2013, I finished grad school. I had been working nearly full time and also carrying a load of two classes per semester for the last three years, so the idea of moving on from that level of busy sounded very nice. Relaxing, even. Except. What happened after I graduated was not what any sane, level-headed person would do. Nope. Instead, I decided I would do ALL THE THINGS. And so I signed up to volunteer for this thing over here and those things over there. I signed up for small things and big things, and it’s the big things, especially, that got me. I found myself heading into 2014 with commitments that kept me up to my eyeballs in Busy.

Because I am a stubborn person, I kept my commitments. I’ll just make my plate bigger, so I can put more stuff on it, I thought. Except, it doesn’t quite work that way. Turns out that I have a very specific-sized plate that only fits a specific amount of stuff. And if I try to pile more on, well, I am the one who ends up in a pile… of exhaustion. It seems logical enough. But sometimes in practice it’s easy to get carried away.

So this year, I changed my mind about what level of busy I want to handle. I thought I wanted to handle All the Busy. I found out this year that I can handle a lot of it reasonably well, but able to handle and wanting to handle are two different things. Now my mind says, let’s see how much busy you can remove from your life and let’s just practice being for awhile. I think that’s a good plan.

This post is a part of Think Kit. Today’s prompt: “What did you change your mind about this year?”

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My year in photos

When I first set out to round up some photos for this post, I thought it would result in just a handful of photos. See, for most of the year, I’ve felt like my life consisted of just about one thing, and that thing was making the Midwest UX conference happen here in Indy this past October. I felt like, for the better part of 10 months, I lived, breathed, ate, and slept that conference. And while it was such a rewarding experience, I am glad that it’s over.

So, it was a really nice surprise that when I looked back on photos from this year, I found a lot more variety than I remembered. Heck, I did a lot this year! Traveled to some great places, spent some time in nature, and had great times with friends. I’m grateful for all this year has brought and these photos serve as a great reminder of that.

This post is a part of Think Kit. Today’s prompt: “Share your year in photos.”

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gearing up for Think Kit

Alrighty, here we go! Tomorrow starts the first prompt for Think Kit and I am really excited to make space to participate this year. Posting a response to one prompt a day for the entire month of December. Of course, I have lofty goals that this project will get me back into the blogging habit enough to keep going the rest of the year, so, fingers crossed!

food

changing my relationship with food

Today is my last day of the Whole30 challenge and I have to say, it’s been an eye-opening experience. When I started, I wasn’t sure what to expect, but what I’ve discovered has been really valuable.

See, I love to eat. I love the experience of cooking food and eating it, I love trying new foods and mixing new flavors, and I love sharing food with friends. I love food as nourishment, food as pleasure and indulgence, and food as celebration. And while I love all of these things about food, I recently started wondering if I need to take a look at my love affair with food a little more closely.

A little more than a month ago, I was noticing that my relationship to food wasn’t where I wanted it to be. I had made a habit of mindlessly eating dinner while watching old episodes of 30 Rock. My brain usually insisted on an afternoon pick-me-up in the form of a grande chai, oatmeal cookie, or other similar sweet treat. When my workmates brought in treats to work, I wouldn’t eat just one. I’d eat one, then another, then another, then… how many did I just eat? Ugh. I knew it possibly went deeper than this (that maybe my diet was also the reason I was so tired all the time), so I wanted bring attention and awareness to my eating habits and see what came up.

Around the same time, I read one of Maija’s blog posts that mentioned something about the Whole30 challenge and its positive effects. So I did a little research. The Whole30 requires you to eliminate sugar (including honey and agave), dairy, grains, legumes, and alcohol in order to help reset the way your body processes food (namely, sugar and fat)  and give it a rest from many foods known to cause inflammation. Essentially, you eat whole foods like vegetables and fruit, along with pasture-raised meats and eggs. I felt like I had been eating those things pretty much anyway, with a bit more emphasis on dairy and legumes. So I thought the Whole30 might be a good challenge and require me to think more about my food choices than I had before. Plus, it scared me to give up dairy (I love cheese) and all sugars (did I mention my sweets habit?), so I took that as a sign that I should definitely go for it.

And go for it, I did. I began the challenge on September 1, not knowing what to expect, but hoping for the best. The first few days were… interesting. Well, the first day, I felt great! I was eating lots of whole foods and good meat from the farmer’s market. I felt clean and healthy and efficient. But then the next few days came. A dull ache took root in my forehead and I wanted to just kind of lay around, take a nap, and do things slowly. (So I guess maybe I hadn’t been eating as well as I thought!) I spent the first week trying to navigate recipes and making good food choices in a number of different situations (it was a real test to have two work functions that first week that featured foods like pizza, mac and cheese, and plenty of cookies, ah!). I felt hyper-vigilant about everything I was eating and every ingredient that went into something I was considering purchasing at the store or ordering off the menu.

Things I did get to eat: Spanish Sweet Potato with Chorizo, Peppers, and Fried Egg

Oh. And my brain wanted sugar basically all the time. Every night I dreamt of eating cookies, fancy lattes from Starbucks (which isn’t usually my style), cake, pie — I’d wake up in a panic, thinking I’d ruined my Whole30, only to be immediately relieved that it was just a dream. Apparently this happens a lot to folks in their first week of the Whole30. I also had to wrestle with my afternoon ritual of a sweet treat. How do I reward myself now that sugar is off the table? (And dang, I realized just how much/often I was using sugar as a reward.) Instead, I walked. I walked around the neighborhood and had an inner dialogue argument with myself about why I was not partaking in sugar. My mind usually had a mini temper tantrum and tried to persuade me otherwise. I reminded myself it was just 30 days, and in the span of a lifetime, 30 days is not a very long time to give up sugar. Somehow, I won the mental battle.

It wasn’t always perfect. I’ve definitely had days where I’ve used fruit to temper the sugar demon, so I’m still examining my drive to eat sweets. I’m thinking it might be best to continue to keep sugar out of my diet perhaps for another few weeks. Or create a “sugar is acceptable in these scenarios” flow chart of sorts. I know I need a better decision guide than just my brain and my taste buds (and my emotions, which play their part).

Sugar proved to be the biggest issue/hurdle for me, but I’ve gained a few other great insights and effects from the Whole30.

  • Better sleep. I used to wake up every night between 1-3am and, depending on my level of stress, would either go back to sleep fairly quickly or stay up for the next hour or so, my mind running a hundred miles. In this past month, I’ve slept like a baby. Out like a light and have had pretty vivid dreams to boot.
  • Sustained energy throughout the day. Instead of a daily 2pm slump in which all I want to do is shove work aside and take a nap, my energy level remains steady, which means I’ve been able to focus better on projects. I’ve also felt more emotionally level and less prone to mood swings.
  • Greater eating awareness. I’ve learned to ask myself, why do I want to eat this? Am I really hungry? If not, what is really going on? Which has been really helpful to begin to uncover what’s at the core of a craving and figure out how to address it. The awareness while eating has also helped me feel more grateful for the nourishment I’m able to give myself.
  • Clothes fit better. While I didn’t track weight or any measurements (it wasn’t a priority this time), I have noticed that my pants fit a little better than they have in the past. Kind of a nice bonus.
  • Food is less of a focus. At social events, my mind usually wants to say, “Hey let’s see what tasty things are at the buffet!” which then leads me to grazing at the food table for the rest of the night. At the social events I went to in the last 30 days, I knew most, if not all, the food would be off limits, so I found myself focusing on the people and event more. I gave my full attention to my conversations with people instead of having a mental running commentary of “When can we get back to the FOOD?” in the background. (Something that is hard to admit.)

Overall, participating in the Whole30 was a really helpful experiment for me and now I’m looking forward to reintroducing foods to see how they make me feel. I suspect that sugar is what makes my energy level dip in the afternoon, but I’m interested to see if anything else has an effect. I’m not really interested in completely going back to the diet I had before, especially knowing that I can maintain steady energy throughout the day. I’m not ready to let that energy go.

I’m really grateful I stumbled on the Whole30. I think it’s definitely worth trying if you’re interested in seeing how a diet change could affect the way you feel overall. I found it was really helpful to read It Starts with Food (the Whole30 book). I also supplemented this challenge by reading Eating Mindfully and incorporating many of the mindful meditations into my eating routine.

I’d be curious to know if you’ve had any interesting revelations in your own relationship with food: how you came to them, how they might have changed your habits. It’s so interesting to me that food can be much more than food and have effects we may not even realize.